e g L e g P r e t e n s i o n
in Barcelona, sharing a small room with a one legged American with
My stilts lean on one wall and his fake leg leans on the other.
Still --even two legged people need crutches of one sort or another to hold
themselves up to people .
I forgive him which is big of me I'll admit.
He confided that when traveling and overhearing an American accent, he
cringes,- afraid of the potential crassness of his countrymen.I mentioned an
American two doors down, who was reading Hemingway- to try to reassure him,--
but he pooh poohed- both the writer and the reader by implication as lightweight.
I told him he was full of insecure, elitist bullshit and he's been face down
on his bed ever since.
Barcelona's a tough city, every day you can find tear- streaked tourists
numbly trying to comprehend that they've just been shown a knife and robbed
of their wallets, or their bag stolen from beside them at the Railway station,
or , less seriously , been sold hashish that is in fact---Junkie turd.There's
this buxom princess that approaches unsuspecting marks and grabs their hands
and pushes them onto her breasts and while her mark is in shock-- she pickpockets
him and hands the goods to a guy who, passes behind her while she does it.
It's a beautiful move, with just the right amount of glib tragedy
To walk the streets with all the money in the world sitting in your back
pocket can be scary , but I , more than most have an occupation that is a sort
of insurance.I'm a clown-you see- and when robbed-as I have been. I have only
to go out onto the street, gather a crowd, entertain them briefly and have funds
at the end of it to continue my haphazard existence.
Obviously harder some days than others.
To be more precise I am a clown on stilts,
removed from the ordinary man by a meter...I Totter...I dance...I make mischief.
I am, in sort, professionally unhappy, which is maybe why I snapped at the
one legged chaps dismissal of Hemingway as lightweight.
I ask you----Really... as if there is a point.
As if intelligence is related to happiness.
I don't want to sound cynical,
I admit life is pointless, but so is death--and while life may be temporarily
pointless, I have a suspicion that death is permanent.
But life contains a range of experience for intelligent and dull alike that
you cannot hope not to enjoy .
I aspire to be a fool eventually ...